You want honesty?
You beg for it- from me,
Like I didn't want to give it.
But I say my peace
And get nothing in return.
Not.
A.
Word.
You want honesty?
What will you trade it for?
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When I was asked yesterday about making my blog more outright, I wasn't sure what exactly that meant. I am always on the lookout to make this page better and more interesting to read- because I want people to; so I am considering what was put forth. But how?

By being more outright I could list the things I do on a daily basis, I feel this is uninteresting. There are times when I do write what I did that day because I either have nothing to write about, I'm avoiding something, or it goes with a bigger concept I'm trying to convey about life in general. However, my day to day activities are pretty monotonous. I go from 8a-1a pretty much every day, seven hours of sleep is my average. Within one day many things happen- my Twitter serves as a mini-live-blog. If I had Internet on my phone, I don't know how often I'd be writing blogs anymore because of the amount of information I'd post there. So, yeah, follow me on Twitter is the moral of that story.

By being more outright I could say the things I've been meaning to say more directly. Now, I've covered this before but I want to add a little bit more to it. Even recently, I posted a blog that started off by saying how there are some things I cannot write in the blog (referring to "Respectfully..." (09-04-10)) and this is totally true, things can become too personal. What I want to add is that I don't like hurting feelings because I know how it feels, and it's pretty un-fun. By writing texts that can't necessarily be pin-pointed to a particular person, I can use the excuse of, "how exactly do you know I was writing about you?" I feel people's opinions of me change rather quickly and I'd rather avoid a conflict especially when something is read on-line and can be read out of context.

By being more outright I could...I don't know, ask for audience participation? So I ask you, the readers that I do have, what is it you want to read? What will keep you coming back, without me having to post something on Facebook? I need suggestions. This isn't just about me, but a community of people that may or may not know me that live through the same experiences. I'm being serious though, it may be tempting to write something jokingly, but please mean what you write and be constructive. If you say my writing sucks, I will believe that you think my writing sucks and I'll never know how to get better. It's not required, but I'd appreciate the advice.
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I am not made up of light bulbs, sometimes my colors don't shine bright enough for you to see them.
I am rather made up of prisms, if you shine a light at me at the right angle you can see everything I offer.