The wait is over...I have a home for next year and it will be in a leadership role of some kind, whether it be the RA or the FA position; I'm just waiting on the FA letter that comes out on Friday- but I was placed in UAC for next year as an RA.

To all those that got it along with me: congrats and I'm excited to be working alongside you and even the alternates there's so many alternates who get placed anyway so don't be discouraged!

To many of those that didn't get accepted know that they didn't reject you, the person, there's just so many people applying for the RA job and many of them just as qualified as the next. I didn't get it my first try, but it made me realize how bad I wanted it and I learned from that experience and matured to be where I am. That and I worked my ass off. I went to the Writing Center for the essays and went into the Career Center THREE times in Winter Quarter alone to prepare for my interview and work on my resume (huge thanks to Ed Childs, he's awesome at what he does, and he was the one who actually recommended me to start a blog)

Now where do I go from here? Metaphorically, before I was searching around in a dark jungle and now that I've found my path it's still so dark that I can't see far but I do see a light in the distance: Cairo, backpacking around Europe, the RA job, this life I lead is pretty special but it's isn't without my fair share of lows that make the highs higher.

I came into this year thinking that anything was possible. My goal was to become as busy as possible and still maintain all my grades; I now know what that feels like with all my extra-curricular activities and work to still maintain an above 3.5 GPA. As most of my friends know I have had to cut down severely on hangout time and I've only seen my friends once or twice this quarter, I went to my first party of the quarter on Saturday after I had been volunteering at the Neo's, so I didn't get there until 1:30 when people started leaving anyway.

Even though I got down on myself there was always hope and that's what I hope people take from this blog. Yeah, I failed my first time but I improved and re-tooled with new experiences and a brand new perspective on things. Have hope. Believe in yourself. Try new things and push your limits! Do the things you need to do to get better, not what you think other people want to see you do.

I don't know, I want to see everyone who wanted the job to get it and I feel bad for those who got really hurt by the decision because I was in the same place last year.

But I tell ya, seeing a dream come true is the sweetest thing ever and I'm still in disbelief that this is actually happening to me...