This is Update #3 from the mugging incident...to be caught up, you can refer to a few posts down called "MUGGED"

I may not look as tough as I am on the outside as I am on the inside. With all of this shit being shoveled on me at once I have been able to look at it and sense that this is what it is, and I just have to face up to that.

I had a job with Imagine Englewood if for nine months before anything terrible happened to me. Sure, there were times when I was frightened by the antics of a person around me but nothing ever came out of it. The funny thing, or incredibly sad thing, is that I told myself that I'd only quit if I got physically assaulted because I can deal with the mind blocks people try and impose on me. As much as I tried to put it out of my mind I faced the same danger every single time I went down there, and if you've read my other blog posts you have to be aware that people told me I was "brave" for what I was doing, though I never really felt that way.

My point is, is that it could have happened any day, why yesterday? I'll never know, but thankfully it happened this close to the end of the year so I had the opportunity to work with the organization as long as I did. For as much as I hated my job, which I did a lot, it got me to go places I never would have dreamed about going and I got to see for myself what the South Side of Chicago is like, from the good side to the very rotten side and I've experienced a lot of suffering in the area aside from my own.

Today I had to go down to Union Station to pick up my train tickets home because I couldn't purchase them online and I really did not want to go alone, even with that many people around. The thing people don't realize is that muggings can happen to anyone, anytime, anywhere. If they think they can get away with it they will try to go through with it. I am happy that I am getting away from Chicago to restart my systems and come back with the same bright view of Chicago that I did before the incident. Remember though please, everything happens so fast, you don't have much time to react and within that small fraction of time you have to decide many different things; it's often best to do what I did and comply by getting on the ground and letting them take what they want to take.

I feel bad though, I'm glad again that I'm going home because while I was on the train I thought I saw one of the attackers, whether it was or not is irrelevant, because I don't want to think about it; I don't want to feel threatened anymore. My trip home will be nice to be in a comfortable environment again, I'm really hoping this is exactly what I need.

To reiterate my closing statements of last blog though, thank you to all those that have read, responded, or sent any kind of prayer my way; I will be alright...I will be alright...I will be alright, you guys have made much of the difference as going home will be the cherry on top. My parents always told me things happen for a reason, and whether or not I want to believe that it's applicable in this case, I have come to realize so many things about people in general and to the number of people who have and continue to make an impact on my life; thank you so much everyone.